Finally escape for a while from dog's day :D. Been too confused with college things as you know that im always write about that. College lil bit better altough that i lost one of my friend, she's moving back to Jakarta, phew i dont know what my college life could be without her since i cant count on my bestfriend i found few people that really care about me.
Lately i feel dumb when i remember that i was being too nice to my friends, i gave them everything that they need, im not blame them either im just asking myself why i have to be become such a cliche. It hurts sometimes that i help them the fact they never cover me back. Everybody's changing and i changed not the way iam, i follow the way they treated me, not a revenge it just rules to survive at least 3 years ahead seems creepy rite?
I thought that my relation with my friend will be fine though, lets call him Buddy. Its missunderstanding on Thursday, he text me not the way he is. Every words that he sent like an evil nevertheless he came to my friend boardhome to apologized. We talked about an hour maybe two but it just cant solved, i knew that it becomes bigger not from us but from other mind or society, i dont know yet somehow i keep asking myself why we become such a mess? or Am is become such a mess?
His text made me think thats the real him sometimes when people angry what they says are the truth rite?. I just hope that i cant stand by myself not depends on someone else.
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