Lately i dont know the way iam to be like this. Im not belong to this society OR YEAH college society. My class. Its getting worse for god sake. Im not one of kind that being alone all the way in my class. I joined them. Laughing. Joking, i just not feel the same since i cant count on my bestfriend (long-lame story) i;ve been too individualist. I dont trust anyone.everyone.someone. no one. but i do need whoever listening my sucks-not-important-stories, i know there is another friends that care enough to me i just cant sharing what-happened to me just cant not because i dont trust them, i just not feel that they are true not fake. I deciding to be like this: being nice to everyone be there when they need me but not expect them do the same if i need them. Despite that i have to Thank God you such gave me loveliest Highschool sweethearts. They are busy nowadays but i dont mind some of them do really know me,care bout me while some of them do have changed. I might be childish or selfish ok not might but thats the way iam but i know if someone have changed, from their reaction or i dont know i just dont feel the same. Weird.