WELCOMING LIFE

So, i've been 4 days at home not going to my office and so on and so on not in the situation like i just really in bed but i called it recovery after what i've been through. I woke up in the morning refuse to overthinking yet thinking about everything,clean up my room decorating again and etc. I watched dvd a lot, download many songs sync to my ipod/ipad, writing eating and all the thing that i missed a lot i used to be woke up in the morning feeling sad and thinking about what should i do what he doing over there and bla bla bla, now i stop it. I'am not saying i'am not sad i admit i'am sad but its just becomes numb so i just being grateful to be like this and i do things that somehow makes me have distraction or somehow somewhat making me busy. Now i just  want to focus on my self that i missed a lot, this monday i will going to my office, this saturday hanging out with my friends, this sunday going to book fair and doing the photography even i just upload it to instagram dunno somehow interests. This January after i finished thie internship i have my holiday plan ,2 plans ; first i'am going to Kuala lumpur & Singapore for a month or i'am going to Karimun Jawa and i'am ready to hit back the college and hit you *sarcasm* 

BE HAPPY!

PASSION

I was and still confusing about what i really want, i just closest to 20. i really was trying to love my major and it works really. One of my lecturer said that " you dont like this major shit its fine but its your provision for your future" and iam quite thinking so much harder than before it was just true and i found that i love tourism, ican explore many countries, little city that might some people didnt recognize i can learn many languages eventhou im still bad in japanese (fyuh), but i just not yet find what i really love about travel management, i do of course loves travelling,who doesnt anyway rite?  whatever about this major shitty, Tourism has many benefits you can be Organizer,Ministry, and last but not least the thing that i dont really interested is being tour leader/ guide, HEY! its not easy to be that  profession, somehow somewhat i adore people that can make that profession to survive their life and earn money from that. Interesting? not really think so yet. I just Proud and adore them


HEY BTW SUPPORT TERUS PARIWISATA INDONESIA!
We actually having so many beneficial source of tourism

THIS IS IT

I hate the way you’re not around

And the fact that you didn’t call

But mostly I hate the way I don’t hate you

Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.”

SOMEDAY

      Someday this word means anything to anybody. Tapi untuk sekarang menurut gue kata ini udah kehilangan makna-nya sendiri aja. Someday tuh harapan, cita-cita, pengorbanan, keajaiban , keikhlasan dan hal-hal lainnya yang mungkin kita as a human never know what will happen in the future :), sekarang banyak banget gak sengaja atau mungkin di sekitar gue saying " someday" with the reason mereka udah pasrah aja sama keadaan jadi biar ga ribet dan gak lama jadi selalu ada kalimat terucap "yaudahlah gue sih percaya someday". Bagus kok kalo emang kita percaya sama suatu hari karena emang gak bakal ada yang tau juga kan? cuman kalo tetap do nothing menurut gue someday-nya itu gak bakal datang

    Someday is a dream. Suatu hari itu mimpi, mimpi yang harus dikejar,dicapai,harapan yang harus terpenuhi jika memungkinkan,kalau misalnya gak terpenuhi tumbuhkan lagi harapannya, yang namanya harapan itu gak akan pernah habis dan suatu hari itu selalu ada dan selalu datang di saat yang tepat.  Suatu hari itu bisa indah bisa juga enggak tergantung bagaimana kita realistis dalam menggantungkan harapannya dan juga berharapnya,seperti lo menyayangi orang lain, yang namanya sayang ke orang,bohong aja kalo kita gak berharap di sayang balik tapi semua itu ada prosesnya entah semakin baik atau buruk dan semua itu akan terjawab di " SOMEDAY" thats why i said " SOMEDAY" tuh bukan hanya sekedar kata-kata yang diucapkan begitu aja, artinya dan maknanya yang harus kita jalanin, selama someday atau suatu harinya belum datang kita semua pasti bisa melihat proses-proses ke depannya tanpa sadar sebenarnya si suatu hari itu sudah semakin dekat dan kita semakin siap. Siap untuk memiliki maupun kehilangan.

    Honestly, gue emang selalu takut kehilangan tapi disini i want to tell you jangan pernah takut kehilangan karena lo masih punya suatu hari dimana lo bisa memiliki dan dimiliki lagi. Mimpi dan harapan itu gak akan pernah mati dan suatu hari berjalan mengiringinya, kata-kata itu harmonisasi dalam kehidupan kita. Memiliki, kehilangan,suatu hari semuanya berkaitan yang bisa kita lakukan memang klise tapi just feel happy what you already have, ada kalanya kita memang harus membiarkan semuanya berjalan apa adanya tapi tetaplah berusaha untuk membuatnya works out.

   Gue gatau sih ini casenya masalah cinta-mimpi-cita-cita atau apapun itu tapi  selalu percaya aja  suatu hari itu pasti ada memang tidak selalu indah but you have to believe one moment in your day kita semua pasti punya suatu hari yang indah yang kita harapkan  kita impikan dan kita telah berusaha sekali untuk mencapainya gak peduli udah berapa kali jatuh gak perduli udah berapa kali someday yang tidak terlalu indah kita dapatkan.

   Makanya untuk sekarang ayo kita kejar mimpi-mimpi, cita-cita dan cinta kita sampai suatu hari yang indah benar-benar datang disaat yang tepat menjadi harmonisasi yang berdampingan tidak hanya mengucap someday karena pasrah 

:)

because someday is beautiful as long as it comes on the right time X

let the air send this message to you

BRIAN MCKNIGHT - 6 8 12

Do you ever think about me?
Do you ever cry yourself to sleep?
In the middle of the night when you're awake,
Are you calling out for me?
Do you ever reminisce?
I can't believe I'm acting like this
I know it's crazy
How I still can feel your kiss

It's been six months, eight days, twelve hours
Since you went away
I miss you so much and I don't know what to say
I should be over you
I should know better but it's just not the case
It's been six months, eight days, twelve hours
Since you went away

Do you ever ask about me?
Do your friends still tell you what to do?
Every time the phone rings,
Do you wish it was me calling you?
Do you still feel the same?
Or has time put out the flame?
I miss you
Is everything okay?

It's hard enough just passing the time
When I can't seem to get you off my mind
And where is the good in goodbye?
Tell me why, tell me why

Sing it for me

PS :  I Know this is sounds too much i already miss you

 its been a week since we 

talked about those things, are u mad? 

iam lil bit unwell and you dont even ask me,

yang semangat ya latiannya, Viel erfolg  :)

UNTUK KAMU DARI KAMU :) #3

"Aku ingin melepasmu pergi. Sebelum kita berdua berontak, dan jadi saling benci. Atau bersama-sama cuma karena menghargai."

UNTUK KAMU DARI KAMU :) #2

"Dan ia memutuskan untuk membiarkan segalanya mengalir. Apa adanya"

500 days of summer

This is random i have nothing to do i just miss to write something, something to be a distraction well this is  the post about  : 

500 DAYS OF SUMMER. Been watching for million times i do can repeat every-single-quotes-from-this-movie, i know the story is so usual but i just love the scenes (IKEA scene i love the most, who the hell are you could make love at shopping place?), the background, the soundtrack ( He loves she and him few months ago,FYI), the quotes and zoeey deschannel always stunning doesnt she?

The scene when they were playing yelling the word "p***s* and it was fun-romantic-edgy.

 This is a story of boy meets girl. The boy, Tom Hansen of Margate, New Jersey, grew up believing that he'd never truly be happy until the day he met the one. This belief stemmed from early exposure to sad British pop music and a total mis-reading of the movie 'The Graduate'. The girl, Summer Finn of Shinnecock, Michigan, did not share this belief. Since the disintegration of her parent's marriage she'd only love two things. The first was her long dark hair. The second was how easily she could cut it off and not feel a thing. Tom meets Summer on January 8th. He knows almost immediately she is who he has been searching for. This is a story of boy meets girl, but you should know upfront, this is not a love story. 

And the most-heartable-words 

" Coincidence, that's all anything ever is, nothing more than coincidence... Tom had finally learned, there are no miracles. There's no such thing as fate, nothing is meant to be. He knew, he was sure of it now."

UNTUK KAMU DARI KAMU :)

" Sama kamu selalu lihat aja nanti selalu ada yang lebih seru dibanding yang lebih penting ". 

The speech describes me all over. So this is still a game?

Iam a huge fan of john mayer. I feel aaaaah! i dont even cant describes how much i love his songs but today i was watching his live performance on youtube at hollywood bowl and he gave the speech on the beginning of 

"Edge of Desire". you know this song incredibly hillarious, and randomnly i saw the tweet from @indraherlambang that said " Two miserable people can make a happy couple". i wonder it could be?. teee heee. Back to my-super sexiest man alive-Mr mayer's speech, his speech very touchy very true i literally could crying if i were there and see this man speech-singing-and-play his guitar. So please BRING MAYER TO JAKARTA!

Anyway i feel like i dont know if this a game, so its ok i'am still playing but you know what somehow i feel its just usual things but back at some moments it was feel like great things that apparently came up. I wonder that i took you for granted and you felt the same way because we're pretty miserable? or are you the only one who taking me for granted or just i'am? tee hee.

And i couldn't agree more to his words

           

      “The night, never to be trusted for emotions. So a lot of you are going to go home tonight and receive texts or possibly compose texts that are not truly representative of how you feel for the rest of the day & the rest of your week -but you’ll be reaching out or having someone reaching out to you. Your friends and your brain and your morals and your conscience have all trained you not to respond, but I’m going to go against the grain and suggest that the next time you receive a text from the one you love, the only person that you love and can’t talk to -
when they ask you if you’re up & you’re up & you love em, you respond ‘yep, come over’ because life is too short to keep playing the game, cause if you really want somebody, you’ll figure it out later, otherwise you’re just lying in your bed with a blackberry on your chest for the rest of night waiting for it to vibrate….”

Well oh well....................

see you in another level then :_)

Danke

Half of my heart - John Mayer

I was born in the arms of imaginary friends
Free to roam, made a home out of everywhere I've been

Then you come on crashing in
Like the realest thing
Trying my best to understand
All that your love can bring

Oh, half of my heart's got a grip on the situation
Half of my heart takes time
Half of my heart's got a right mind
To tell you that I can't keep lovin' you, can't keep lovin' you
Oh, with half of my heart

I was made to believe I'd never love somebody else
Made a plan, stay the man who can only love himself

Lonely was the song I sang
'Til the day you came
Showing me another way
And all that my love can bring

Half of my heart's got a real good imagination
Half of my heart's got you
Half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you
That half of my heart won't do


notes : At some point somehow i wanna say thanks to you, danke :)

Fit the songs on my day

 Hollywood nobody     Telescope

 John Mayer               Edge of desire

 John Mayer               Age of worry

 Oasis                          Let there be love

 Soko                           Its raining outside

 Feist                           One evening

The kooks                  Junk of the heart

already posted this video on my tumblr a couple of months ago. so here we go the phase that we've been through in our love life. Breath-taking. Enjoy

Fashion Outfit Part I

I told ya i have big passion on fashion so here they are some new looks maybe could inspire you, i made them from looklet been long time not playing it, i know sounds lame and sorry for the crunchy tittle cos i played when i was in grade 10 it means that time i thought it was cool tee hee. Enjoy

Going out to some hip concerts? its awsum

                                                         

  chilling out at the mall with girls?

                                                 

  Its winter already

 Here we go Summer! 

 Chillax at night

Going out to some hippy club! 

Need some coffee? Meet me at coffee shop

Favoritos! Click from camera

It is what it is, It was what it was

Picture says Thousand unsaid words

Chaotic

Finally escape for a while from dog's day :D. Been too confused with college things as you know that im always write about that. College lil bit better altough that i lost one of my friend, she's moving back to Jakarta, phew i dont know what my college life could be without her since i cant count on my bestfriend i found few people that really care about me.

Lately i feel dumb when i remember that i was being too nice to my friends, i gave them everything that they need, im not blame them either im just asking myself why i have to be become such a cliche. It hurts sometimes that i help them the fact they never cover me back. Everybody's changing and i changed not the way iam, i follow  the way they treated me, not a revenge it just rules to survive at least 3 years ahead seems creepy rite?

I thought that my relation with my friend will be fine though, lets call him Buddy. Its missunderstanding on Thursday, he text me not the way he is. Every words that he sent like an evil nevertheless he came to my friend boardhome to apologized. We talked about an hour maybe two but it just cant solved, i knew that it becomes  bigger not from us but from other mind or society, i dont know yet somehow i keep asking myself why we become such a mess? or Am is become such a mess?

His text made me think thats the real him sometimes when people angry what they says are the truth rite?. I just hope that i cant stand by myself not depends on someone else. 

Meet Me Halfway

literally i didnt introduced my self yet, so here's the facts about me hope you dont missunderstood

What am i doing these days?

• Im going to college everyday. One word : Boring.
• Im working on my project : My novel,My Fashion scrapbook,My photograph,Editing some photos
• Studying grammar more and more.English literature
• Looking for scholarship on Europe or Australia ( I think i gotta take Tourism development or Social studies)
• Loosing some weights ha-ha
• Workout,Gym.
• Driving all the way by myself while im in Jakarta

What is My biggest dream?

• I wanna be Psychology.I Wanna be Fashion editor or Fashion critical at Vogue Magazine like soon, well reality not better as my dream actually im studying Travel management and i dont even have an idea whether i like it or not. Thats my dream i dont know what future will bring us. Just see and how it goes :) Keep Fighting
• I wanna be Announcer of Radio station
• Based on major that i took in my college so i become lil bit realistic hmm i think i want be...... ah i dont even know. what a dumb
• Prague trip/europe trip. I adore prague the most!! IM over crazy bazzy about PRAGUE
• My novel showed up on best-seller bookcase on bookstore, cool isnt it?
• Meet James Franco or Tom sturridge (ok this is actually insane)

What i love the most?

• Titanium (i tell you later)
• My CAMERA
• Pencil case + stationeries ( im such having a problem when i buy stationeries. I bought a lot and i never use it, im such a shoppaholic in the bookstore)
• Coffee + Ciggy + Novels/books(something to read). Well i quit smoking lately
• Joking + Laughing
• Your smile
• Highschool Sweetheart
• Bestfriend
• Pink
• Birthday
• Surprise
• DVD marathon time ( Kinda Movie/serial freak)
• Internet of course.
• old stuff
• Princess Jasmine
• Disney Movie cartoon!
• Pretzel
• Rainy day
• My boyfriend played with my hair
• Bookstore and cozy cafe ( not kind of geek,well thats ok i admit it, id love to hangout with my friend from mall to mall or in some hippie club too but not just too much). Id rather choose bookstore/cozy cafe instead

What i hate the most?

• CAT
• Dark
• Ghost hmpppfh
• Thunder

Favourite?

• James Franco
• Tom sturiddge
• Alexa Chung
• Mila kunis
• Daisy lowe
• Freja Beha Erichsen
• Anna Wintour
• Kimora-Lee simmons
• Ed Westwick
• Leighton Meester
• Blaire's Character
• Kaya Scodelario
• British guys
• Vanilla Blend
• Kids
• Language
• Titanium
• Sitta Karina. Dewi Lestari. Paul coelho,Dalai Lama
• Ancient Proverbs
• Merlin Casts

The conclusion is im weird and insane and wont sorry for being real. xx

Backyard coffee Jam session

Due to my interest about some indie band i usually attending the gigs. its June 28 when i saw the announcement about this gigs,actually this is not a gigs just a jam,so i asked my friend Sofi (nyinyi) to attending this jam and on June 30 we literally went there!!!!!!  We actually could talking directly with band personnel. The crowd was not so hectic yet but fun. and i'll show you the photos. We met Personnel of Maliq D'essentials,The trees and the wild of course and 21Stnight,oh FYI the vocalist of 21stnight has changed into Dimas. You can search on google or my space for more information.  Here some photos and i took those photos from my new camera tee hee B)

This is the special video birthday greetings from the tress and the wild for my friend. Thankyou Iga,Remedy and Andra for helping. PS : (Karena gue baik walaupun kita sering berantem tuh liat kan sampe minta2 ke ttaw) HAHAHA

Iga and Remedy from The tress and the wild

The Price in case you want chilaxx on this cafe

Well it was a blast. SUPER  c u next gigs